Gothicka by Victoria Nelson
What does it mean to become the monster? In part it means identifying with the dark and rejected aspects of the self that exist in every person, including the taboo primal energy around violence and sex. That is the classic Gothick, and by extension Goth, connection. But it also means desiring to experience a reality beyond the material world, even if the need itself is not consciously acknowledged and even if the only vehicles available are the uniformly dark imaginary supernatural characters that pop culture presents outside organized religion. Getting to that treasure ultimately requires balancing the scales more evenly between good and evil supernaturalism and is a prime reason the nature of Gothick monsters, including vampires, began to change after the turn of the century.